light,
sky-sifted,
lace and crystal pattern
unmatched.

pure and
earth-bound.

clearwhitefalltouchskin.

[ruth | 12.29.02]

Christmas presents from office people!!! :D woohoo!


*resists the urge to open the them while i'm still here at work* :p

Kit ♥ Mike
12.11.2002


Woke up at seven and talked with ms♥ for a bit, then prepared for the lovely afternoon wedding. Even after reminding myself to grab something to eat before meeting bloodymary and the rest, i still forgot >_< Prophecy and I stepped out of the galleria suites' elevator at the same time. Looked for bloodymary, dressed up, then we waited for pentuna and crughmie.

Mantis drove the jampacked car to the wedding (and to everywhere else). Bloodymary mentioned that they should get a car soon. I reminded her to get a big one, so that we'd all be comfortable :p Crughmie, the only one with an about-normal sized body commented that we don't need a bigger car, we need smaller bodies. Thank you, Crughmie. You deserved the arm slaps that you got from me. :p

We got there just in time. Took our place and watched Kit walk down the isle. Lovely bride. :)


to be continued..

c r a z y

sixteen hours of work.
lunch. eleven hours of sleep.
i'm still sleepy.

madhunt

The last few mall trips were spent looking for:

... Hungry Young Poets album. i found out that my friend accidentally messed up my copy. 'been searching for a copy but can't find one. i dont know if there's still any available, since the band broke up years ago. (the stores have copies of introvoyz's albums. who needs them??) 'can't find any mp3's too. bleh.

... pucca thingies. addict! *points at self* i have a feeling they're out there somewhere, i just dont know where to look. i've seen some celfone housings though, but none for my unit. i spent around an hour looking for this non-mainstream shirt shop that was featured at mtv ink. they have astroboy stuff from the pictures in the article, so i thought it's worth checking out for pucca items too. and i found it!! and they have this uber cute pucca coin bank. and below is a sign that says "Don't touch. Not for sale." >_< That's just like saying "Drool on this!" ....Egg at Megamall basement has some bags. :D gotta go back to that store to check on more items soon.

*munches on karen's home-baked chip cookies* mmm. these are good. :) yummy treats from kit's bridal shower. it was held at the vivere suites. (nice building. funny elevators.) went there with pentuna (also known as Pulang Mariposa) and prophecy.

it was fun watching kit blush when she opened the seckzy and naughty (and edible!!) undies. 3 more nights before she gets to use them... *grins*

not so good things:
   accidentally stepped on prophecy's new (and expensive) glasses when i took the backseat.
    one of the wheels on pentuna's car exploded while she was near the squatters area at C5 on her way home. she was alone, wearing a skirt, with a busted spare tire on the dark road. there were some guys drinking beer nearby. kinda like a scene from pinoy komiks. that scene is very scary in real life.
she was able to drive her car to the vulcanizing shop. got a new tire and was able to get home safely.

sooooo cute. i'm addicted.

I'm tired.

Could the hot soup girl be the equivalent of The Twisted future world dominatrix Jessica Zafra?

gasp!

this theory clouds my brain with endless questions and spurts of excitement. (an excuse for not thinking straight). if i had more time in my hands and more money in my pocket (which doesn't really have relevance to this, but would be a very lovely idea) i'd be listing down evidences that would support my theory. maybe in the future...

figured out how to troubleshoot the 503 error when i blog.
I deleted the archive.

err.

10.13.02


went straight home from work my 12hr shift yesterday. 'was asleep and dreaming during the whole trip ;p no one was at home when i got there. Ama left me a note telling where they went and what i can eat. heh. slept mostly while i was there. my sister arrived at around 10, and she was in a hurry coz her friends are at our cousin's place. several minutes after she left my cousin made dozens of 5-second calls. she'd call, tell me to go to their place as soon as i say hello, then hang-up. it was crazy! sometimes i'd trick her and hand the phone to Ama or Ina. hehehe. she did this, over and over, til my phone run out of battery. she said they're having a great time at their place and that they're gonna watch some films and that i have to head over.

when i got to their house (2 houses away) their lights were out and my aunt was sleeping already and their friends aren't there anymore and my cousin and sis weren't doing anything. *shakes head*

watched Shrek when i was there. i haven't seen it and it's great to finally watch it. great non-kiddie humor. it's a fun movie. the part i loved best was when they made balloons. ;p it deserves to be in my top animated films, together with Monsters, Inc.

went home at around 1am. slept. went back to work.

restdays are fun.

10.11.02    



right now i can taste the medicine the dentist used wednesday morning during my second
rct session. it was painless. but i can do without the bitter aftertaste.

here's something i saw from today's link-hopping:




won't it be kewl if all spray-can-carrying street painters has his artistry? but, yeah, vandalism is still vandalism..

10.07.02 8:34p


had a great weekend. nothing uber special about it really.. it was kewl. maybe even ordinary. hmm, maybe coz i'm feeling great overall that's why i feel i had a really fantastic weekend? maybe :)

i was in such a great mood that i didn't get upset when i found out that tats broke my guitar when she accidentally dropped it. i even managed to joke about it, just so she won't feel guilty. she's as surprised as i am... ;p it cannot be repaired, but that's ok. i don't use it much anyways, and getting a new one is the least of my priorities right now.

was able to talk with ms this sunday before i went to malolos. it's been a while since we were able to talk without much interruptions. heh. but i'm on a new sked now, and we're still figuring out how we can talk everyday.. no worries though. i know we'll find a way ;)

went to the town proper with my sis to attend mass last night. we got there early so we dropped by a new-ish store. she bought a pair of silver(-looking ;p) earrings, and i found a nice ring. i have to remind myself to remove it before i do my umm.. magic tricks at work if i want to keep it for a long time..

oh, and i got a package from loooora!! ;D *dances the Candy Dance* ;D her letters always make me laugh *grins* and she sent me a genuine aarikka necklace. yep, loora, it can't get more Finnish than that :D thank you thank you ! *smiles* *munches on a candy* ;p

this morning, i had the weirdest, creepiest dream.. the details are so vivid which makes it even more weird than it already is.. i wasn't creeped out while i was dreaming it, like they're normal, every day events. but now that i'm recalling it.. *shudders*

speaking of dreams, my dream weaver is back :) he said he'll work on the dream assignments again this month, and i got the first one today. :)

yep, everything's great :)




10.05.02 9:37a



the first session of the rootcanal treatment was painless. whew! ;p four hours before the schedule i got scared so i asked tats to accompany me. everything went well. minor discomfort during the treatment. :) we'll see if i can still say the same after my second appointment next thursday..


blogger templates are down at the moment so i'm using this temporary template, which i can update anytime. funny, now that i have access to this journal i don't know what to write...

la la la...

my root canal treatment last sunday got cancelled. and the sweet lady at the desk didn't inform me earlier! she said the dentist wasnt feeling well. so, ok, she has the right not to feel well, (or something), but they should have informed me so i didn't have to go all the way to southmall just to find out. >_<

i will go there (again) tomorrow. alone. not coz tats is not available, coz she is, and is willing to accompany me. but i hate to drag her there again and mess up her sked again. so i told her to keep her phone open just in case i really need to call her up to bring me back to the semihome.

la la la..

my bad tooth is aching. :|

i'll go to the dentist again tomorrow for a re-assesment. the first one i saw said that my options are root canal and extraction. gah. i don't think the next dentist would have a better suggestion, but still..

i also have to talk to the hr person to check of my health card covers root canal expenses. hrmp. looks like my computer money won't be used for buying pc parts. >_<

on the brighter side (i'm so glad there are brighter sides..) i got 2 letters today! :] got a letter from namaste and a postcard from c'ris. will write them back soon, plus mail the ones at the apartment (i think they're so old now. i may have to re-write them first..). i got 2 new kiddie books from my sis :) a very nice painting, a book (Dahl's The Story of Henry Sugar and Six More) and cards from dublin (birthday/Chirstmas/St Patrick's-day-and-everything-else-in-between gifts ;p)

i had a weird dream last night. i can't remember most of it, but the ones i do are just odd..

another monday afternoon. heh, i get to update this only on my restday. >_<

ms went to sleep some mintues ago. wasn't able to talk with him much this whole weekend because of our appointments. glad we were able to catch each other online today. :)

saw my college friends again this weekend. :) talked and laughed and made a few more decisions and assignments on the project. boss juls and mina met us and they brought CJ with them. adorable baby :) the poor little thing cried so much while we were at starbucks and stopped only when he was brought outside. he's so cute when he smiles. heh, i guess all babies are ;p but still..

we later ate at mann han (man hann? mann hann? mannn hannn?). correction.. we later ate A LOT at mann han (man hann? mann hann?..). four bowls of fried rice + 2 orders of spicy squid (that is not spicy at all but is still yummy) + the pork thing + tausi clams + steamed dumplings. and there were only 6 of us too ;p so yeah, that was a very filling dinner. dublin wasn't able to eat much though coz he fetched his girl and introduced her to us during the meal. it was nice to finally meet her. :) she and her friend left right away though coz they were meeting other friends.

next stop was the foodcourt where we talked more about the project to decide about the name and the packaging. crughmie joined us. then choy arrived and chatted with us for a bit, but left after a while. we then transferred to mcdo to finalize more things. we have decided on the name, and the product name, and the ideal packaging.

it was past 12 when we decided to call it a day. kit and mike gave me a ride home. we were all so quiet during the whole trip. heh, i know i was silent coz i was so tired. ;p hmm, i just realized i won't be able to meet them after my shift rotation. uh-oh.

it's monday afternoon. i had 12 hours sleep last night, and i'm still so tired and sleepy. gah!

had a tiring week. the presentation + the 12hr shifts were draining. had many little "tampuhans" with tats, thanks to my bad mood. (i blame it on being sleep-deprived) wasn't able to talk much with ms with this sked :( ah, 2 more weeks of waking up at 4am... hrmp!

one of the good things (the only..?) about this sked is i got to meet my friends. i saw kit, bloodymary, mantis and crughmie last saturday. *smiles* we talked about a new project which i won't talk about yet coz we haven't registered our name and we don't have the product out yet. heh. we're excited about it :D

sweet Kit gave me a very very kewl present for my birthday. she made miniature magnets of my artworks and little words taken from my site. :) it's so neat. heh, i don't want to take the little works apart but i will and i'll keep them in little case. :D she also gave me a really nice yellow ucb bag. thanks, Kit. :)

oh, yeah, birthday. heh. i turned 26 a few mondays ago. :p nothing much has changed..

after eating at mega's basement and being teased about my.. *cough*.. muscles (thanks, mantis :p) we watched the last full screening of signs. it was good. it mixed the elements of existence of extra terrestrials and spirituality in a suspense-packed film. hmm, science and faith. there were spoilers, but still good.

i'll be meeting them again this coming saturday (i think). yayyy!

...............................

got a few things these last few weeks: banana yoshimoto's np, jessica zafra's twisted 6. jamiroquai's a funk odyssey, volumes 1 and 2 of the best of bukas palad, robbie williams' sing when you're winning. sari-sari had the black bag again so i bought one so that dublin and i don't have to share mine. heh. yeah, he's gonna pay for it ;p + extra fee for my bag rental. hehehe..

mathematics.


   

since Hellstrom left for NZ early this year, it was only these last few weeks that i was able to keep in touch with him. during our last few conversations over ym we were able to talk about the really cheap cost of books and art pieces there (he has completed his Sandman collection!), the Vigan dream, the sad state of having art around you but not having artsy-friends to appreciate them with, how he would like to tear ssg to pieces, the complications of happiness, the tapsi treat that dublin owes us, the insane cost of a can of coke (PhP 60), and the things one would do to share his blessing with his friends.


*grin*

we miss you, Chie. see you in april.

projects:

. source files for dAprints
    . re-scan. re-optimize. re-size.

. illustrations for the Natural Histories
    . concept. materials.

. finish the Know page.

The Unblogged Great Events


    #825 . a trip to the butterfly haven with Ina and Ama.
        butterflies. flowers. dinner.

    #867 . clairesoleil's engagement with her Mike. ♥
        the date : dec 11, 2002 :)

    #906, #915, #937 . hearing the snail's voice.
        natural histories. orchids. gardens. whispers. laughter. love.

soulful. poetic. moving.

Kitchen is my first taste of Banana Yoshimoto's writing.

it won't be the last.

[huge thanks to the sweet one for the banana yoshimoto experience.]

*hums happily*

hmm hmm hm hmmhmmm :)

i'm lazy. and i don't care about this place anymore.




nah, just can't update this one at work coz blogger is blocked. >_<

short.updates _

met t.e.'s first baby last Sunday...
will meet some deviants this coming friday..


(how's that for short?)
heh. not much time right now. will complete the updates later.

i've been "writing" some stuff lately. nothing fantastic, but the style is different from my usual and that excites me. i'll see if i can upload them here but i'm running our of space right now. need to send the *.jpeg files to dublin so that they could be optimized..

oh, and i just realized that the links in the main Art page are not working *slaps forehead*
just fixed it a while ago..


.........

site updates:

locussolus . port5 . com
serp . port5 . com

one of the most hilarious stuff i've seen in a while:
Maritess vs the SuperFriends




..........


i've been getting dream assignments everyday since the last days of june.
today's assignment is the loveliest so far :)


thank you, DreamMaster. ;D

i finally got to meet serp last night!! ;D He's one of the kewl graphics artist + poet i *met* at dA. 'got drawn into his poetry because of our huge similarities in writing. the length, the choice of words..

we met after i got off from my 12hr shift. had burgers. exchanged *stuff.* [copies of sarah mclachlan's cd's! video card for my future baby!! *huge smile*] rushed to the bookstore to get watercolor paper coz the bookstore and most of the other stores close at 8 (crazy mall!) then talked over iced tea.

he's really kewl. as nice in real life as he is online. :)

and his hair.. ooh, i wish i had hair like that. ;p light curls.. nice length.. it probably won't look as nice on me, but still.. ;)



.........

yummy art

Met bloodymary, mantis, crughmie, dublin, ninong, and mike for kit's dinner invitation at the Super Bowl last saturday night. The food was fantastic! the dimsum, the tosino-tasting meat, the little trees, the fried rice, the noodles, everything! the service was a bit lousy, though.. but we still had a great time. [thanks, Kit :)]

Choy arrived much later and met us at starbucks. Mmm, it's so good to be with all of them again. Glad that ninong was able to join us again after his long absence. Spent most of the night putting ninong in the hot seat, grilling him about the details of The Break-up.

Kit, Mike and I bid the guys goodbye at around midnight. At around 7am sunday morning, i got a call from Dublin informing me that he has just arrived home from the night out. huhuhu.. the things i (we) miss because of work..

a few more encoding and writing and uploading and this place will be done. i bet by the time i finish this i'd be tired of the way this looks. sus! locussolus and i are having a race on who gets to finish first. the winner gets a bushel of works and poems! (yumm!)

Tiff's blog has a new look by the way. ;] well, not exactly new, but i'm slow. ;p the penguins on the top of the page is a lovely touch.

i've updated the b[links]. to add more soon..

*takes a sniff of the stagnant mindswap air*
back to update a bit..


*clears throat*
the Art page is up!




[waves to Pascal, Tiff and Kit. :) ]

i'll be back.





soon.

... and then i tried doing the seashore girl in oil.

May the force be with George Lucas.

episode ii was fun with all those special effects and the races and anakin's tricks and yoda's fight scene and c3po's mess. but other than that, i don't dig the story. *shrugs*



it was great to catch it though. the theater was empty so we got really good seats.

i very much enjoy my movie nights with Kit, regardless of the flick we're catching. :) we watched starwars with her Mike, her cousins Billy and the spunky, sweet-fun-kid Sue. She's 10 yrs old and she's already writing a book. (Go Sue!) i look forward to watch another movie with them soon. :)

. she sells mechanical seashells by the seashore .

sleepy.
sixteen working hours. two have passed. and i'm already sleepy.

.

Tough week. It consisted of messy, out of control machines, sleepy operators, shutdown tags and a busy skyO.
The cough won't leave me alone. Sore throat left but chest pains took its place as cough's companion.
I need a looooong vacation.

.

Met my journal friends for breakfast this saturday. dublin's treat! I ordered when dublin got there and again when choy and bloodymary arrived. hehe. oh, there where only four of us. ;\ i was looking forward to seeing more..

I brought along my works for dublin to see, pleaded him and choy to start drawing again but i don't think it worked. *sigh* They are my closest artist-friends, geographically and in sense, but they have stopped drawing. at least dublin still works on some digital designs sometimes, but choy has stopped completey after the t.e. journal stint. hrmm. i miss being physically surrounded by creative and artistic people and their contagious energy..

Anyway, we went inside the mall after we had our breakfast to look for a bag. dublin "borrowed" my bag so now we're looking for one that would replace it. hehe. i hate to take it back coz he obviously loves it.. but i love that bag too. sus! so we tried to look but of course we didn't succeed. it takes me months to find a style of bag that i really really like. He's willing to buy me anything just so i won't take the bag home with me that day... well good friends that we are we didn't subject his generous mood to abuse so we all went home with a bar of soap from +anonymous. ;]

Mantis arrived later from his gym work-out, just in time for lunch. we ate while planning/semi-wishing a vacation trip. Vigan, maybe? oooh, i hope.

.

It was only a few months ago that I learned about Henry, and immediately got attached to his adventures, his beliefs, and his thoughts and principles.
It's heartbreaking to find out that the diary created to help him and his father remember featured its final entry.
But what's more heartbreaking is the reason behind it.


Reality takes a sad turn..

when i tried posting Artbot&Turdle, i realized one thing..
i'm out of space.

waaah! that means i won't be able to upload my works here. dum de dum.. seems that i won't be able to finish the Art and Know sections.. dum de dum..

artbot + turdle + old markers.
done when i received the package with The Hypothetical small package.




[click on image to see the full drawing]

busy end of the week.

thursday : rest day!
went home straight from my graveyard shit. fell asleep on the bus. arrived Home a little before 11 am. went to the town proper to post DD. mindswapped with ruhyan for a bit over msn. went home. slept. woke up at 6pm. went to the opening ceremonies of a seminar to be hosted by my *spiritual daughter.* read 6 full pages of an intro before the attendees (raspy voice, sniffs and cough intact). went Home; arrived at around 11pm. talked a bit my Ina before going to sleep.

friday : post "rest day."
Ama and Ina woke me up at around 7am to say goodbye and give me goodbye kisses. stayed in bed til 9. watched tv. itched to do something artistic (or worthwhile). looked around the house and noticed the mess. did nothing about the mess. went to town to post DD. went home and prepared self for trip back to work. Ama and Ina arrived as i was about to leave. said goodbyes. stopped by at megamall to continue the search for the kiddie books i've been looking for. found them! [smile] but wasn't able to get enough copies. went to the top floors and checked out the art galleries. saw new paintings of Ang Kiukok and Agustin Goy. [side note: even though i see a lot of art on the web, nothing could still match the experience of seeing the huge paintings up close.] bought cookies, linseed oil, and lots of glue sticks. [i just had this great idea to keep a glue stick in my bag so that i'd have glue everywhere i go. umm. yeah.] went to work and arrived just in time for my 12hour shift.

saturday back to back 12 hr shifts.
arrived at the semiHome from work at around 8am. work was stressful. [the kind of 'stress' that involves calling up the boss and the boss' boss at night, doing 'underground' work.. twice, not being able to eat during breaktime, and giving them updates in the morning.] slept. coughed a lot while sleeping. overslept. prepared stuff to be taken home. arrived at work at 7pm [an hour late]. ate yesterday's cookies [which i totally forgot yesterday. found them in my bag as i was preparing my things for work.] missed my highschool friend's wedding [which was at malolos].

after this shift i'll be heading Home again to give a little talk at the seminar and head back for work later in the evening.

go me.

When i was still studying i couldn't go out as often as i want to with friends coz
      a. i live an hour away from Manila;
      b. i'm short on gimik funds.


If ever i go out i have to start saying my goodbyes by around 9pm. The fun hasn't even started yet and i'm already dragging my body to the nearest bus terminal.

Now that i'm earning my own money and can afford to go out and stay late i still can't because of my work sked. It's not fun to work 6 days a week and not be able to hang out with the people i want to be with. Thanks to my weird hours and no-you-can't-take-a-leave-this-week work policy i missed the weddings of 2 of my highschool closer friends and it seems i'm going to miss another this coming saturday. Kit planned a subic gimik for the t.e. people this weekend and there's no chance i can join them too.

Life has its twisted ways..

Realizing the imbalance of certain areas of one's life is an anxiety-filled experince. While half of you becomes eager to make the necessary changes to bring back the balance in your sytem, the other half is disabled by fear of the unknown and justifies the resistance with the phrases 'being practical' and 'being realistic.'

I'm a chicken being practical and realistic. And it's not fun.


[mental note: i think i should start writing a grateful journal just so this issue won't bring me down.]

Twenty things. Twenty people. Twenty days.

*Blink, Blink*

gasp! Blogger is not blocked!
oooooh! i hope i hope i hope websense will never block it again.

(you know i'm not breathing, right?)

i'm impatient and i insist on showing the hip menu bar on top even though the links would bring you to a dead end.
well, not all the links. words and b[links] are *almost* finished.


so there.
*grin*

Happy Birthday, sweet lady Tiff! *Hug*

Spider-Man can save me from trouble any time.


well, never mind that the only big trouble i get myself into is being late for work because of traffic and even at that i don't think he can save me due to the lack of tall buildings in this city, so we can't just swing fom one skyscraper to another. but it's still comforting to know that the current hero of my choice wears a cool costume and has an awesome butt eye for photography.



:[ thanks for the movie treat, Kit :) ]:

Websense is now blocking Blogger. this means i can update this journal


a. whenever i visit an i-cafe and
  a.1 i feel like blogging;
  a.2 i have something to write about;
b. once i have my baby assembled and can blog from the semiHome.



*sigh*

"Blogging can be a catharsis. It's an outlet on so many levels, for the frustrated, the disenchanted, the amateur or professional writer, the wildly prolific, the grieving and suffering, the idealist, the outrageously creative, the bored, or the royally pissed off."


Amen.

*stre-e-e-e-e-tch*

I'm finishing one of my projects. (remember the old old old list of projects? i'm still working on them! ugh!) This one involves a lot of trial&errors, well, mostly errors.. and a lot of typing and a lot of testing and a lot of forehead-smacking. oh, and stretching. *stretches once more*

Roomie and Patatas transferred their stuff - personal belongings, gifts form their wedding - at the semiHome today. Now we'll have a ref, a tube, shelves, a new table, oven toaster, rice cooker, roomie's *cough* pc, more kitchen wares and less less less floor space. I'm missing the old bare look of our semiHome already.. but maybe not when the tube is plugged in. *grin* Aaah, i'll be able to watch Friends and felicity and Dharma & Gregg and maybe even Daria and some music videos and catch Lourd on myx's Halo-halo (erm, i'm not really sure if the show is still on). I have a feeling the old list of projects will be folded and shoved to one dark insect-infested unreachable corner inside my head..

it's 11 a.m.
and all i can think of is my bed.

we parted early today. the boss called for an 8.30 meeting which ended at 9.30 am.
my shift starts at 2 pm.

i should still be at the semiHome dreaming away.. well, maybe not dreaming, but struggling to get up, pushing the snooze button for the 11th or 12th time.. telling myself it's ok to sleep some more coz i slept at around 3.

good thing though, it's a holiday! May 1 is Labor Day. while i sit here there are probably hundreds of workers protesting in front of Malacanang Palace. hmm, shouldn't we be celebrating it by working hard? heh. maybe not..

And Lourd sings it for me,
speaks it in his bee-bop beat,
and neural pop trickeries
wrapped in the thin smoke of his ganja,
surging in the speed that his poetry defines,
wailing with the crescendo of his imagined jazz,
My dark soul, my extreme,
my side away from the sun.



/justifying my attraction to Lourd de Veyra's poetry/
ruth.jacob

Roomie + Patatas exchanged their vows yesterday, April 27 2002, after being together for seven years.

parallel to the set-up at Mantis and BloodyMary's wedding, Ina and Ama were sponsors, and I was the one who "lit their path."

they came form the same town in Batangas, and their houses are a few blocks apart. This is one of the cities where traditions are well kept and practiced. The night before the wedding, a party was held at the bride's place. since majority of their relatives are living on their area, the bride's home was full of visitors and guests a day before the wedding.

I was expecting that the newly weds would do a Prosperity Dance at the reception, since this is one of their traditions - the couple would dance and well wishers would pin bills on the couple's gown/Barong, but was surprised and amused at what they did in place of the dance. A table was set up in the middle of the area, and on top of the table were boxes of suman. The couple took their seats on the table, and a 'secretary' sat with them. the announcer then opened the traditional 'Pabenta.' he said the suman can be 'bought' from the couple at p100/bundle. Well, of course, this is very pricey for a bundle of suman, but what's important here is to give the couple cash. The emcee calls out the names of everybody who makes a 'purchase' and how much they gave while the Pabenta took place, and the secretary takes them down, so that the couple would remember the poeple who helped them.

Well, i know that getting cash as a gift would be better than getting 6 dozens of plates or 2 rice dispensers, but is there really a need to announce how much you gave? It's a bit embarassing for the relative/visitor..

On another somewhat related note, Patatas would be staying at the semiHome when they get back from their honeymoon! yayy! finally, there's someone at the semiHome i can talk to! *huge smile*

oh, and btw, there's a chance that roomie will bring the computer to the semiHome. i was hoping i had saved enough money to buy the missing computer parts of my baby before they get married.. but there were too many events these past few weeks that 'required' me to spend.. and one of them is their wedding. nu ni nu ni nu..

"Sometimes things are worth more than you could ever imagine."




the ArtBot left these words on my page, shedding light to my previous mindSwap entry.
cosmic, huh? i get answers from things that are totally unrelated.

..and sometimes there are things that are not worth doing.


and you realize that after you have exerted effort already.

Today,

i stepped inside
my Self

and got lost
in its darkness.



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that wasn't exactly for today. written a few days ago. the reason... i don't know. *shrugs*
and like i told slimak, there are no reasons, just triggers. it comes and it goes..

If art is food, this will be my main course everyday.


yummy.

twenty... two.. more.. minutes.. before.. i .. can.. head.. home.. argh!

i'm so sleepy that i don't even have the energy to laugh. Ivs and Tats were having a hard time catching their breath while laughing out loud at the canteen because of all the strories that they were telling and all i can do was give them a weak smile. bleh. too sleepy and too tired. I stayed at the plant for more than 9 hours on top of my regular 8hr shift to finish the first part of an engineering qual. when i got my sleep-deprived self back to the office today i didn't even have the energy to inspect the strips used for the qual.


*falls off from her chair*

lookie! it's Turdle! yep, he's living inside the mini Magnetic Poetry Kit now.
He came in a "hypothetical small package" inside the bigger package that ArtBot sent together with an original artwork, a copy of Mechanical Joy, a study of one of his works, and ArtBot pics.

port5.com is back.
mindSwap is back.

Back from a 36 glorious hours of Not Working. *huge smile* Then again, the fact that i started my sentence with "back" makes my announcement anti-climactic. yeah, yeah... i'm at the office again.

The Break gave birth to The Letter Eff. It's my first ever collage. I'm feeling both nice and weird about it. It's nice to finally cut ang glue together stuff instead of drawing them. Weird coz it somehow didn't come up the way i expected it. Organized chaos. I'm so middle-brained.

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Tuesday night, i met two lovely couples.

Pixelcatalyst and Fibermarupok decided to meet and bring along their ladies. I invited myself over. hehe. (As my cousin would put it: "Aaw.. fifth wheel! *snicker*")

It was a fantastic night. I had a great time meeting and talking these people i met electronically. Fiber paid for dinner *thanks Fiber* and Pix and Calysta brought me a knight. *laughing*

can we do that again, please?

Six.5 hours. I spent six.5 hours with the journal barkada last night.

Thirty or so minutes at Starbucks spent waiting for Pentuna and the others, laughing looking at the pictures taken at the Mantis-BloodyMary nuptials, hearing stories about umm.. the SpecialChild and concluding again that she is indeed special, and oooh-ing at Prophecy's henna tat.

How long did we wait at congo grill for a table..? Hmmm.. i don't usually keep track of time, really. But we stood there for a long time, and had to perform a Table and Chair Dance (a'la Rain Dance). Prophecy, Pentuna and I were about to do a Boyfriend Dance when we got interrupted. A table for seven was finally ready.

Humid place. Quick service. Good food. Fantastic company. yum!

After our dinner, Petuna went back to the office where she has to stay and finish her shift. We headed to the Podium to check out the place and stare at the reflective surface of the pillars. We have a perfectly logical and human reason to stare at the pillars: Our reflections look thin and lean.

We went back to Starbucks at the strip for a few more minutes of talking and laughing. While Mike and i were trying our best not to fall asleep and Crughmie was finishing his cold chocolate drink, Kit got a call from Mantis informing her that she'll be reporting as an Associate Engineer in the Crughmie-Mantis-Claire office come April!! Absolutely kewl news. *huge smile* Kit is happy and excited. We are happy and excited.

My eyes were really heavy and the thought of having to wake up at four killed my energy. I was so ready to go home. But when we were outside, just as I was about to ride Kit's car, we decided to stick for a while longer to wait for Dublin. We haven't seen him for a while, and he's a bit out of reach, thanks to his sked and some effing retards who took his phone.

Dublin got there a few minutes before midnight. 'talked with him for a while, then we said our goodbyes.

On our way home, we listened to Dave Matthew's lovely lovely lovely poetry slash music in Kit's car while Mike drove.
(thanks for the ride, guys.)

Six.5 hours. Not enough.



Punchline of the Night
Quoting SpecialChild: We are fans of white people.

Line Sustaining 101. Lesson 1: CART

CART - acronym for Corrective Action Request Tag. This is issued by the enemies Quality Assurance group when they find a product that fails visual and reliability criteria. When a product is verified to have a defect, the whole batch that was processed together with the defective product *yawn* will be returned to the operators for 100% inspection, and the machine where it was processed will be monitored, studied and corrected by the process engineer. If a second CART on the same defect is issued on the same machine, a Shutdown Tag will be issued. The machine cannot be used until it can be assured that the products will be free of defects.

This also means the lot with the defect will be placed on hold until it is inspected and re-gated, which may potentially miss its shipment if the inspection takes long. And if a machine is given a shutdown tag, more products will miss its shipment. In other words, production supervisors both from your department and the other departments will be breathing down your neck while you troubleshoot.


Yesterday, within my 8 hr shift, the QA issued 7 CART's to lots processed in 6 machines out of the 9 that are running.

stress? what stress?! *faints*

yellow. my hands are yellow.
an inch long minor burn rests near my wrist with an almost perfect 95 degree angle.
i'll be meeting the journal barkada tonight for a two-hour celebration of PenTuna's birthday.
we also met last week because... we can. heh.
and yes, my hands are yellow.

just a few weeks ago, the sweetest friend a person could ever have launched Operation: SkyOrange PC. *huge grin* Kit Fortress and Mike are putting together the parts of my future baby. (that sounded a bit creepy..)

so far we have the mb, soundcard, processor plus the casing, mouse, floppy disk drive, cd drive (which i don't know if it's fully functional), cables, which were donated and sold (aah.. chinese businessmen.. hehe ) by different sources. at this point i'd like to thank my sponsors. *smile*

we are still accepting donations. ;P

i felt a surge of happy tears while i was watching mtv road rules.

*points and laughs at Self *

aah. never mind that there's nothing better. but then, when you're as tube-deprived as i am you'd feel great joy and excitement over anything that moves and makes sound within the cube. right..? (that's defense number one)

geeze.. crying over the show. what a sad sight. *shakes head* (you've felt this coming, right? here comes defense number two: ) there's definitely something wrong with my system right now. i have a lot inside just waiting to be released.

i have multiple presonalities, if you haven't noticed yet. and stating that makes me feel more secured. heh.

for the first time here on the surface of MindSwap, i'll be posting a poem that i did not write.

this work is precious. very precious.


~



...



My sweet Moon Flower
How her petals pull at me like the tide
an all consuming comfort that binds deeper than light to dark.


There is something about the night that makes her smile.
She loves to count the light years to the stars.
And she loves to love.


Is it cheese like they used to say?
Fluffy pillows of cosmic ash and smoke?
Is it just what you call home?


Oh, My Moon flower.


Does the emptiness of space make you sad?
Or does it give you time to wish you could touch the sun?
I bet you like that sun don't you?


When it gets cold, what do you do?
I know you can't cry.
I have seen your tears rise above you and float into the orbit of your fears.


Can I help you fill what was intended to be empty?
Can I stand here and admire you standing so tall?
Can I have you for my own?


You know I get lonely sometimes.


How would I keep you?
Could you hold me in my atmosphere?
Or would you just float away?


Like all the others?


No...


Our friendship extends greater than the universe.
Strange how things happen like that.
When planets pass close enough for the moons to say hello.
And then we bloom.




My Sweet Moonflower
pyriel



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...written by the heart, touching the soul..

Project Update p.2


. Interview for Pixelcatalyst's site - done. and another one to go. it took me 5 months to finish one interview. maybe this time i'll work one up in less time. say.. 4 months. nu ni nu...

. short descrip for fiber's Fatal Seduction Series - done.

. still magnet-less.

. no word from ev33l ruhyan about our projects.

. site. - site? what site?! heh. my jedi training was cut short. not enough medichlorian, they said. but.. but.. but.. yeah, in time. right, jedi master? *grin*

met Eloi last night at the FstvlMl so that i could give her my *cough* Christmas gift. eherm.. yes, we live in the same town, and her house is just one ride away from my semiHome. she also stayed at my parents' house (my Home) for a night earlier this year. but i just wasn't able to give it to her earlier than last night. hmm, it's good that i have weird sked to blame. hehe.

it's so nice to spend time with her again. she's one of the persons i'm most comfortable with, she's almost like a sister. hmm, my 'almost-sister-in-law-2b.' i lived with her and her nice family when i started working, and stayed with them for more than a year. she's also one of the most makulit (the nice type of makulit - childlike and funny) people i know, and her kakulitan is contagious. ;D when we're holding drinks, expect her to propose a toast ("to... coke!"). when watching tv, she's ask if i think the guy on the tube is gay or not, then we'd debate about it. hehe. it's because of her that i got to know Roald Dahl and Charlie and Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory.

we walked in and out of stores, i got myself a pair of cheap jeans (May the heavens save it from acid attack. Amen.), ate burgers, walked in and out of more stores, she made fun of my insane liking for orange and red, more stores, then went home. nice.. :)

i used to look forward to the boss-less carefree working saturdays and sundays. weekends used to mean low volume of production load, some routine checks on the machines and the solutions, then going home on time.


now i dread weekends. it seems that all the process issues that escaped and got past our quality assurance gates gather together and mingle, maybe even chat over some cappuccino, stay low away from the spotlights, then resurface and attack on weekends... during my 12-hr weekend shift. lots are put on hold, our line is under tighter and more strict gating, machines get shutdown tags at the same time, line defects are detected causing more shutdown tags.


today was one of those dreaded weekends. at least, tonight, i'll be going back to my semiHome with acid-stain-free skin, and hole-free jeans.


i'm OK, though. 'could be better, but OK nonetheless.


* * breathes out

and another TEST. hmmm. i can go on testing the whole day...

show up, comment thingie!!

funny thing... how can we mindSwap when there's no commenting ability?!


hmm.. i miss my lj already..

TheOtherJournal got blocked at work. :|
this is gonna be MindSwap's home from now on i guess.

gotta figure out a few things to control and leave as is.


damn websense.

test.